Progress Report

Just a few status updates for Project: Life Changing today, if only to remind me that is what I am doing at a point when much of it feels like swimming in mud.

Learning to Drive
Awaiting new provisional licence so looking forward to the post everyday. And today I was also specially selected to win £16, 479. Which is nice.

Getting Thinner
A bit of a yay day on this one as I have dropped a bag of sugar and now weigh in at 13 stone 12lbs.

Being Terribly Naughty
I think today qualifies as a success as I did get up and did take the dogs for a walk, in the rain, even though I ended up hiding in the bushes, sobbing uncontrollably and waving my mobile about trying to pick up a signal for emergency call to Little Blister. When she managed to squish a word or two in between my choked sobs, Little Blister pointed out that it was a positive thing. I was at least outside walking the dogs whilst crying and not at home in bed. So it's progress apparently.

Oh, and I also regained a little courage in dealing with birthday boy Bear today and suggested he might like to just accept his birthday gifts gracefully. He found it surprising that family and friends still treated him as they have before and I pointed out that not everyone has the talent for closing down relationships and emotions like a Terminator being taken offline. Was a little scared in mentioning it in case it made him hate me even more. And then I realised that wasn't actually possible so it technically didn't matter.

And finally
Big up to Chandi the dancing dog for a gorgeous performance on tonights Britain's Got Talent that bought more tears to my eyes. But tears of some kind of joy at that kind of devotion. Dogs is best.

Yours in hope and fear, AJ x